25 Jul 2010Tags: pregnancy, trying to conceive
My 8 months of trying to conceive was long, gruelling and emotionally harrowing. And really, by comparison to the length of time it takes some people who suffer with secondary fertility it is a relatively short period of time. And yet, there’s nothing about it that seems short. I have an infinite respect for other people who go through the trying to conceive turmoil for only a small amount of time or an unbelievably long amount of time. After 8 months I was wondering how many more months I had in me. I can’t imagine how people feel after two years.
For a while the pregnancy test was sitting on my kitchen bench. I would look at it every now and again for reassurance because the whole thing just seemed so surreal. After months of expecting to get pregnant, I’d crossed over into struggling to believe that it would ever happen. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, for something bad to happen. And although it’s only been a few days, I’m settling into it, just a bit now.
I’m not waiting to get my period. I’m figuring out ways to get more nap time, and making sure I take my vitamins and taking extra care of my teeth (first pregnancy resulted in about 12 cavities. Yes, 12! I’d rather not do that again). And most importantly, I’m reminding myself that no matter how tired I am, or how uncomfortable I get, I will not complain about it, because I am so grateful.
Part of the reality is that there are all sorts of things I haven’t let myself even think about for a really long time. I haven’t bought anything even remotely baby, even though at times I was sorely tempted. I also have not done any of the things that I swore I would do before I got pregnant. Like get back to a more comfortable weight, get back to exercising and get fit, paint the house and redo the floors, convert the garage into a playroom so I have a fighting chance of getting a dining room table and encouraging some actual table manners. Just to name a few. And all of a sudden that seems like a really long list. Really long. But i don’t care, at least I can buy onesies now.
Ami (1)
Belinda (1)
Lindsey (1)
So, so glad for you…..
Thanks Sherri!
This is wonderful – I’m so glad it’s finally sinking in!
Congratulations again!!! 
It’s sinking in even more now that I’ve given notice at work.
Thinking of you. Congratulations!
Thanks Tiff! I’ll be giving the VBAC team at JHH a call this week to see what I need to do to get into the program
congrats zoey! what is the vbac program at JHH??
I’m so so happy for you, and a little jealous too.
*hugs* I know how hard the last few months have been for you… feel free to send some pregnancy vibes to me too!
xx
I was always a little bit jealous when friends got pregnant – you’re in good company! And yes, sending you all the baby mojo I can muster.
you know, you are still allowed to complain. in 7 months when you’re feeling horrible, we won’t hold it against you. it doesn’t make you ungrateful, it just means that pregnancy gets HARD sometimes.
Thanks Jamie. I’m sure I’ll have some of those days too – from memory they went a little something like – my hips are crap / I can’t sleep / I can’t bend over / heartburn sucks ass
OH yes, I missed this comment before. Feel free to complain all you like…we’re here to listen luv!
Do you still have all of Riley’s old baby stuff saved? I’m sure you want some new stuff for the new baby (I WOULD!) I’m just being nosy, lol
I know a lot of people that ended up far skinnier after their second pregnancy. I guess all the weight they gained with their first put some serious fear in them, the second time around, LOL… here’s to hoping
I have it all saved in the garage – although my packing efforts were less than stellar so I’m not sure what condition everything is in. But yes, I want to go shopping and buy new stuff!!! But given Josh won’t let me find out the sex I’ll still be shopping for neutral colours. So annoying!
I definitely won’t be having the attitude of ‘I’m pregnant, so I can eat whatever I want and might as well take advantage’ yeah – losing the weight at the other end not so much fun.
HAHAHA I would guess that old moldy clothes would be a perfect reason for a shopping trip! Will you have any sort of second shower? I think every baby deserves a welcoming party
Was Riley’s sex a surprise too? I guess I just never thought of you having a boy, ha! Already assumed you were growing another girl, that’s why I mentioned hand-me-downs ;D
Congratulations, Zoey! I missed this announcement when you published it, but I’m so happy for you! I know it was a long, hard 8 months.